015_GIA , a.k.a. PogoQueen

• Website:http://BrianWarner.Manson.com
  
• E-Mail: PogoQueenX@aol.com
  
• Bio/Quote/Etc:Matthew 7:1 in the New testament "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Well, I am not a Christian , but I definately use that bible quote to shut up those narrow minded protestors at concerts. Especially at a Marilyn Manson concert, although I really haven't experienced protestors at a Manson concert here in California other than the ban of his shows in Fresno. Call me a "Mansonite" if you will, tell me what a "fagit" he is.. notice the spelling.. ahem! There are too many individuals who still like to criticize me for the music I listen to and the people I choose to be around, but I've learned over the years not to give a shit. This is my one and only life and I am going to live it the way I want it to be, not the way some Christian prays for me to be, not the way my parents wanted me to be and certainly not the way some of the snotty goths think other "gothly" people should be. I can confess that I am not a true gothic. I love the dress, the makeup, the music and the clubs and the people who are associated with the whole scene. I have always leaned towards looking at the dark side of things, especially when I was very small. Instead of drawing sunshine and green grass, I drew bats and ghouls.. everyday was Halloween in my eyes. There have been people along my path of life that made me feel guilty for drawing and writing about those "evil" things; so I then changed into one of those conformists that I hate. I didn't like what I was and I felt like I was living in a huge plastic world. About 6 years ago, I found the real me once again and I let it come out. Funnily enough, it was the summer after I graduated high school. I saw a NIN/Manson show in 1994 and I knew that I was doing something wrong almost my whole life before that night. The most beautiful people were at this concert.. in whispy black dresses or tight leather with chrome buckles, with white faces and black lips.. I didn't know people actually looked like what I drew on my lined paper ! I felt so comfortable with these people and they shared the same views on the world as I did. I wish I could have kept all of those people in a box and kept them forever. I can't find people like that anywhere now. It seems like they've diminished. I still go to Manson concerts and such, but the people there don't seem like they really should be. Because I found that behind all that makeup and liner was just a bunch of teenagers who didn't know shit about the bands or the meaning of the music. So.. where the hell did those people go from 6 years ago! People who liked the music and knew what the hell it stood for! Where did they go!??? Where are the hardcore Mansonites of yester year? hahahah.. damn it! OH well, maybe some of you are out there in the world. Maybe I just live in an ugly town called Fremont/Newark. Maybe I am just delusional.
  
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